Merci Beaucoup~

谢谢你给了我一个那么难忘的

平安夜

圣诞节

和最重要的生日

我会好好温存这美好回忆。

Vous avez la belle sourire~

Comment allez-vous ?

Je vous manque toute la nuit.

Je suis content de voyager avec vous.

Je voudrais aller en France avec vous à l'avenir.

Je préfère vous voir sourire.

Mais je vous fais ai pleuré.

Je suis désolé parce que

je suis toujours amour vous.

Je ne sais pas si j'ai toujours une chance.

Je vous aime vraiment.

Word Definition

How should I define the words below:-

1) Habit

2) Used to be

3) Practice

4) Routine

You know my daily activities.

You know my schedule.

You know everything about me.

I am very happy to have these.

I am very glad to let you so.

I am very proud to be part of it.

I prefer to have no secret and privacy in front of you.

However, when it comes to others, the weird feeling strikes me.

I can say I feel annoyed.

是我一成不变吗？

是我乏味无趣吗？

我真的那么明显吗？

检讨检讨~

Ouch~

Today go settle some club's stuffs. (get approval & hang the event banner)

I was not able to find any of my committee to help me.

I have to climb up there and hang it by my own.

It ended up with I knocked my head at the corner of the step. (it's made of steel)

I wasn't able to continue and start calling other friend for help.

Luckily I found 2 of them whom free and willing to help.

I appreciate and apologize for any consequences occurred.

This is my 2nd time I knocked my head in 2009.

1st time was on 2 months ago. (21st Sept)

Having dinner at that time, and suddenly the 3-section folding screen dropped.

It was very loud and it was very pain.

I wish there is no more 3rd time, s'il vous plait~

J'ai mal la tête.

Tu me manques.

Je suis fatigué

Bad things just make me feel breathless.
I really don't give a damn to all these.
They just not deserve for me to spend my times.
Just feel wanna leave here and have a break.
Just want to spend time with you as I wish.

p/s: my mind is shouting:
BACK OFF!!!
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
DON'T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED!!!

Aujourd'hui~

Bonjour, Bonsoir~
Today is just simply a bad day for me.
1) A big pimple on my forehead.
2) Stomachache.
3) Fever.
4) Headache.
5) Been nagged for nothing.

有些事真的那么需要去在乎吗？
我没做不代表我不要做。
至于我没做，一定有我自己的理由和苦衷。
请至少尊重我。

Guilty

Sincere apologize to (you know who you are).
There is mis-understanding while reading your messages.
I feel guilty for letting all these happened.
Yet the time was already passed.
I am so helpless in saving the situation.
Please forgive me.

心一直这样告诉自己，
你有权利情绪化　你不一定要坚强。
我不是无理取闹。
我只是不开心，我好累。

已经关在笼里3个星期的小鸟，
就只要求出外与朋友喜乐，
都那么困难。

脚上缠着的链索，
门把上的枷锁，
什么时候才可以让小鸟自行决定呢？

Eiffel Tower

今天睡醒起来，
脑海里就一直浮现这句话，

巴黎铁塔要有恋人，才能显现得出浪漫。

La Tour Eiffel

At Last~

Finally, it's the time to put a full stop for my internship. I'm not enjoy during this 4 months of time. It's really far far apart with my expectations.

Yesterday (29/09) was the presentation of internship, which we need to show to MMU supervisor that what we had learned during internship. At first, the presentation was being set on 17/09 since early of Sept. However, my company supervisor became first-time father on 15 Sept, and he got 3 days maternity leave.

Company director, company supervisor closed-door meeting with MMU supervisor for about half an hour on yesterday. There are some comments from director (which i think almost all are bad). And I shall make myself clear that director only talked with me twice (some more it's in June). I really have no idea how she judge us, and the judgement is based on what.

MMU supervisor didn't enclose any comment from director to us. No matter what it's, I get my marks from company supervisor already. I'm very disappointed, it's not as what I expected. Ya, some might say, as long as can pass then don't care already.

Back to the lame question:-

Did you learn something from your internship?

Ya, I learned how to adapt with the working environment. Not much for technical wise, it's only ASP, PHP and little bit about MySQL. I'm still feel great it's because I learned something although it's by myself from the internet. It's not much, still better than data entry blindly and purposeless.

Lastly, here I enclosed a statement quoted from my director. I hope someone can clear my doubt.

We are not going to teach you anything, but we are hoping something from you. We are here only to expose you to the working environment.

Internship is only to expose students to working environment? However, we still don't know what industries need, what you actually expect from us?

Déjà vu?!

昨天你又再次来了，

这次相处的时间长了。

去了很多地方，

做了很多事情，

也发生了些状况。

虽说我及时把你拉住，

但你真的吓傻了，

我很后悔，

为什么先前自己会有那么的安排？

问你：“你没事吧，还好吗？”

你只是摇摇头，哭了。

我只能看着你，心疼了。

我肯定不要这样的

Déjà vu

Raining

窗外刮着强风，整棵大树都在摇晃了。

我的窗也“自动”关上了。

看着雨水打在窗上，

听着风经过窗隙的声音，

也真好现在是农历七月。

好阴森哦~

昨晚你来了，谢谢你。

虽说相处的时间短暂，

但我已足够了，

我也尽力了。

回想起当初你的那一句，

我真的很感动。感动至今。

善忘的你还记得吗？

麦当劳记

今天午餐去吃麦当劳，选了靠窗的单座。

观望着窗外，也注意到面前有一对母子。

妈妈的眼神就是吸引我的地方。

儿子吃一口，喝一口，再望望妈妈。

妈妈总是回以心满意足的笑容。

还时不时帮儿子拭嘴。

儿子吃饱了，要去洗手了。

离开了，妈妈手握着纸巾。

眼泪夺眶而出了。

一双好无奈的眼神。

妈妈很担心让儿子看见，

就连有人经过，妈妈都赶快把眼泪擦干。

妈妈看了看手表，抚摸着儿子的头，

说了几句，就一起离开了。

电视剧可说是见怪不怪了。

现实生活也可真是头一遭。

不久又有位妇女走进来了。

她向一对情侣讨钱，

工作人员见状，赶紧上前拉住。

的确惊动了大家。

尽管工作人员劝说别给，

那男生还是掏出钱包给了。

若我经过该区，我都是光顾此店。

我的确再次看到了许多，

许多生活真实写照。

感触良多，珍惜眼前。

p/s 回途上做了件好事，心情好起来了。

Counting Down~

Finally the day has come.

The day that I have waited for months.

I have just launched my countdown timer.

Hope can pass through with ease.

Gonna finish up everything asap.

Then back to my day for recharging.

I urge I can own those days.

Dearest friends,

Put yourself together,

Korekaramo Ganbatte Kudasai~

七夕节

这几天，都吹着强风，

吹走了朦胧的烟霾，

还大地一片绿色生气，

天空也恢复了原有的蔚蓝。

仰头看天，寻寻觅觅着，

成群的喜鹊搭成横跨的鹊桥，

牛郎织女年度相聚的地方。

真的想你了。

真的很想很想。。。

相见时难别亦难。

希望下一次我不再会泪盈满眶。

有些事我没说，

但我有感觉；

有些事我没说，
但我知道结果。

Proud to be Malaysian?!

Still remember those secondary school days, once stepped into August, some patriotic songs will be played to encourage students to appreciate the independence. (yet everyone is much more appreciate if the holiday is more than one day :D)

Since leave school life, hardly to hear to those songs, kinda miss that. This year the theme of "1 Malaysia" is on the air everywhere. I didn't into it so much, didn't vote for the 1Malaysia song too. However there is another song which sang by AMP All Star attracted me.

AMP All Star - Satu Malaysia.mp3

(Right click -> Save target as) to download

And there is a link posted by friends. I personally enjoyed visiting this site and looking forward for more coming out. Take a look if you think you are free.

15Malaysia.com

People asking, do you feel proud to be Malaysian? Think about it~

失踪记

今天让你担心了，知道你很着急。
但放心，我真的没事。
我也不会让自己有事。
就算是有事，我定会告知。

大家都说我到底怎么搞的。
竟然可以让你这么紧张。
我听了，感触了。
想你了。

我定会汲取今天的教训。
心底的问号也已得到，
最彻底的答案了。
别无他求了。

我定好好保重，
因为我又何尝不是，
习以为常。。。

Once in History

This post is set to be published on this moment,

just to make a wish~

Shall thou miss this moment,

there are still more coming~

It's because, every moment

that I gonna spend with thee,

I will make them the PRECIOUS moment.

Posted Approximate: 12:34:56 07/08/09

Real Programmers

That day google something quite interesting and would like to share with friends.
Enjoy~~

• Real Programmers aren't afraid to use GOTOs.


• Real Programmers can write five page long DO loops without getting confused.


• Real Programmers like Arithmetic IF statements-- they make the code more interesting.


• Real Programmers write self-modifying code, especially if they can save 20 nanoseconds in the middle of a tight loop.


• Real Programmers don't need comments-- the code is obvious.


• Since Fortran doesn't have a structured IF, REPEAT ... UNTIL, or CASE statement, Real Programmers don't have to worry about not using them. Besides, they can be simulated when necessary using assigned GOTOs.


• At a party, the Real Programmers are the ones in the corner talking about operating system security and how to get around it.


• At a football game, the Real Programmer is the one comparing the plays against his simulations printed on 11 by 14 fanfold paper.


• At the beach, the Real Programmer is the one drawing flowcharts in the sand.


• At a funeral, the Real Programmer is the one saying "Poor George. And he almost had the sort routine working before the coronary."


• In a grocery store, the Real Programmer is the one who insists on running the cans past the laser checkout scanner himself, because he never could trust keypunch operators to get it right the first time.


• No Real Programmer works 9 to 5. (Unless it's the ones at night.)


• Real Programmers don't wear neckties.


• Real Programmers don't wear high heeled shoes.


• Real Programmers arrive at work in time for lunch.


• A Real Programmer might or might not know his wife's name. He does, however, know the entire ASCII (or EBCDIC) code table.


• Real Programmers don't know how to cook. Grocery stores aren't open at three in the morning. Real Programmers survive on Twinkies and coffee.

Last but not least,

• Real Programmers write programs, NOT documentation. Leave that to the maintenence people.

给你的。。。

晚上7－10点，同家人亲朋相聚，或者在看电视时

是情感性流泪发生频率最高的时间。

悲伤时，流出泪水，有利于健康。

那天我逼着要你答应我，

今天知道你痛了，哭了，

我的头皮发麻了，心酸了。

我愣了，后悔了。

我收回了，一切都收回了。

我不再要你答应我任何。

真的不要了。

在我面前，你可以卸下一切武装，

坦然地做回原来的自己。

说故事的人

每段故事的开始，总是让人期待。
但每段故事的结局不是每个人都等得到。
请允许故事中加插几首小插曲。
那天你哭了，我听见，我知道。
你既不想说，我也不会问。
说故事的人依然会继续说故事。
因为我在乎。

What comes after storyteller?
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2 down~ 2 to go~

Some said it's very fast for two months passed. However, I said "Fuh, 2 more months to go~"

In this 2nd month, I was assigned with many tasks. Try to come out with a list:-

1) Study about Fusion Charts, Fusion Widgets and Fusion Maps.

2) Learned ASP from internet tutorial.

3) System testing and jot down the bugs.

4) System debugging. (con't from 3)

5) Learned PHP and MySQL from internet tutorial.

6) Coding for system.

7) Research on send SMS via ASP

8) Website design. (Again~~)

This month not much complain, because I learned a lot from works. I was enjoyed although feel tired. Honestly, I preferred system coding or debugging rather than website design. It's really not my interest at all.

Now, I filled my day with PHP, ASP, Javascript, VB script as well as some MySQL query. Hope I still talking human languages. I have to admit that IT students used to be learned more languages than ordinary people. You know what I'm talking about~ :D

I voiced it out at last~

我独自站在灯柱下，凝视着自己的影子。
我想脱离那紧跟的黑暗，但却无能为力。
我还记得你曾对我说，下辈子要成为我的影子，紧紧跟牢我。

我有很多话想要对你说，但我就是害怕会伤了你的心。
看着你满怀欣喜地诉说他的好，我的心顿时感到刺痛。
为了不要让你担心，我尽我所能去掩饰我的伤感。
我所挤出的笑容，都快把我的脸给弄得紧绷了。

屏幕上有着我的笑脸，键盘上有我的热泪。
泪水模糊了我的视线，我的前景也模糊了。
所有计划宣告无限期展延。

我又食言了，我哭了！
对不起，真的对不起！
我答应过你，我是不哭的，
因为我已还你了。

但。。。
眼泪像洪水崩了堤，堵不住了。
我不压抑，不勉强，
闭上眼让自己尽情地哭。

那日在你的怀中，你对我说：

哭吧，尽情地哭吧，别压抑太久了！我知道你很辛苦！

是啊，你就是那么的了解我，我们就是那么心灵相通，
也就因如此，在你面前，
我会毫无保留，毫无顾忌。

若我们还有下辈子，
下辈子我一定要找到你，
与你携手共渡。

1-4-3 F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

一切尽在不言中。
很多事不必说出口，你已知道很清楚。
后悔是终身的遗憾，但至少我没遗憾。
不能天长地久，但很庆幸曾经拥有。
回忆是永不磨灭，但会被时间淡化。

善忘的你，希望你记得。。。

Make A Wish

My friend once said

If you saw aeroplane fly over your head at least nine-times a day,
Make a wish, and your wish may come true.

(except at airport)

也许太过天真，有点天马行空。
一年半以前，我已经有了这个习惯。
我对着它许愿，也许愿望很卑微，
但它也许也在你耳边回响多遍了。
身份，地位，价值，
是我的致命伤。

心情

天空没有痕迹，但鸟儿已经展翅掠过。
胸口没有疤痕，但匕首已经肆虐刺入。
曾是你闭上双眼，聆听的地方，
现在已。。。

重伤了，淌血了。

One Month

Shall I say it is too fast to pass my first month of internship?
No way~!! I urge it passes as fast as possible. Just pray harder for someone or something which can drag me out from the hell. I'm not deserve for all these kinds of bloody hell stuffs. Who deserved with these...What the **CK!!!

Everyday go work on time, lunch break on time, back home on time. I admit that I really didn't pay them my heart during works. It's just kinda hard for me to do so. I tried to convince myself to do my best, but I ended up with big big yawning... :O

Guess what, for a whole month I'm still playing around with the website stuffs. N-times changes taken, supervisor still not satisfied. Is the problem come from my side? At the early stage, I admit that; and now I just getting fed up and disappointed.

All my colleague also said my supervisor a.k.a. IT Department head lack of communication skills. He won't tell the changes at one shot. Yesterday showed him, and he said change this and that only, the rest is good; today showed him the modified, he said change this and that, the rest is good. :

By the way, the things that he asked me to change on today is the things that he asked me to change yesterday. So why don't you yourself think carefully, then tell me your last decision. Just make me double works.

At first putting hopes of learning something new during internship, now seems my dream blew off. Supervisor said "If you don't know this and that, then it will take you very long time to learn by your own, but I hope you can do it fast." He is not going to teach me, yet blame on me for the slow progress.

ARGH~~~ Bloody GOD DAMN~~
DEPRESSED~~~
STRESSED == DESSERTS

p/s: It takes me long time. Please give me some time.

无言以对

哭了，累了，垮了。
彻底地崩溃了。

是无言以对，抑或。。。
一切尽在不言中。

你不会失去我，
但我却失去了你。

时间是良药或毒药，
就交由时间去证明。

是时候醒觉，领悟，明了。

无题 Tit-le-ss

• 通常女生都喜欢搂枕，有安全感。


• Girls would like booster or soft toys, they feel safety with it.


• 没有得你的允许，我都会爱下去。


• Although I did not get your permission, I will still loving you.


• 你送赠的非积蓄买得到。


• Your gifts is just simply invaluable.


• 我们的爱若是错误，愿你我没有白白受苦。


• If our love is a mistake, wish we both learned from it.


• 若曾真心真意付出，就应该满足。


• We should be happy cause our love is sincere and honest.


• 无法开启你我内心的事，真是很讽刺。


• How ironic when couple can't read each other heart.

End of 2nd Week

Just back from work. What an exhausted day~

Today, the air quality in Cyberjaya is very bad. The whole Cyberjaya looks hazy from early morning till now. The sun won't be bright yet the environment is extremely warm~

Went to work as usual. Sit in front PC from beginning till end. Yesterday just showed supervisor the updated progress. Still more changes to be done. Without further delay, start "torturing" my poor little "mouse" (it'll be jumping here and there, out of control if the PC is busy).

Before lunch, already completed the content. Plan to have some modification on design after lunch break. Not quite feeling well in this kind of weather. Eat healthier and drink more water (luckily the water dispenser already being refilled).

Today, CEO and Managing Director spent whole day with us in the company. Ok. Here's come the managing director to check on my work. As what I expected, she did not satisfied with it. And she asked me to start all over again, I shall be given only 2 days to come out with a new plan and design.

I admit that, this is my mistake. I will learn from the mistake and take her advices, supervisor's suggestions, colleagues' recommendations seriously. I should make up my mind, no more lacking. Think out of the box, not to constrain creativity (I was being told I haven't reach the university standard).

This is a good chance for me to show myself. Needed to polish up my skills to convince people. Sorry, I'll take the blame for not take it seriously. Thanks for the chance given.

Take care~

After one week...

This week is my 2nd week of internship. Nothing much to update since I'm still doing the previous task that assigned which is website design. Last Thursday I showed supervisor the progress, and he gave me some comments on it.

I need to add in more interactivity and make the website looks more dynamic. How to define the dynamic and static, I have no idea. So the normal way to guess is - google it. :) Dynamic website can be KISS (Keep It Simple and Silly). Dynamic means the content of the website will update from time to time. Static website means no update. :)

So I just tried to add some simple flash and some interactivity. No screenshot is allow because copyright © thing very troublesome. By the way, tomorrow I need to present to managing director about the website that I designed in first week.

I feel bit nervous because I really didn't put much effort on it. Everyday go work on time, lunch hour on time, cabut (back home) on time. Morning 830 until evening 530, minus one hour lunch time, another one hour, I was "fishing" zzZzZzzZ... So ended up with only 7 hours stay awake, and do nothing :P

The office environment is just too quiet and peaceful. Just got the rhythmical PC fan sound which come out from my PC (company server). That's the reason I was (am) being hypnotized. I'm not the only one who fishing in the office, some IT department programmers too. :)

Wish me luck for the presentation. Hopefully, I'll start to learn something new this week onwards. My friends are enjoying their internship life. All the best to you all too. Gambateh~ Take care.

**p/s: weather getting worst these few days, drink more water, eat fruits, nutrition supplements. :P

Another Stage of Life

As the clock tik-tok-ing, we are stepping into June 2009. And I stepping into another stage of my life. I'm having my internship a.k.a. industrial training starting from today until 30 September 2009.

The company that I go in is named ADvanced Methodology & Assessment of Corperate Solution (AD-MACS) Corporate Consultants (M) Sdn. Bhd. (it tooks me weeks to memorise the company name) There are 3 main products or services from this company, which are, Customer Satisfaction Index System (MCSI), Automated Balanced Key Performance Indicators System (BKPI) and Corrective Action Reporting System (CARS). Basically, all these system mentioned are dealing with statistical studies (that's all).

This company ain't big organization, the organization structure only consists of 8 people. Not much of introduction session, and I haven't officially assigned task. My supervisor just asked me to think about the way to improve the company website design since I'm student majoring in Software and Animation (you must be very creative enough to do some animation for our system as well as website, since the website is too static and dull).

Due to thinking only yet, not really implementation, I just browse through internet whole day long. After a while, start to feel sleepy and keep on fishing. (:P Luckily, that time CEO and Managing Director already leave office).

From morning 830 until evening 530, it ends my 1st day of intern. Phew~~relieve~~ About 4 months more to go, need to gambateh and at least learned something from them. Managing Director said :"both sides must have at least one benefit." (:P keep fingers crossed)

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