2 down~ 2 to go~

Some said it's very fast for two months passed. However, I said "Fuh, 2 more months to go~"

In this 2nd month, I was assigned with many tasks. Try to come out with a list:-

1) Study about Fusion Charts, Fusion Widgets and Fusion Maps.

2) Learned ASP from internet tutorial.

3) System testing and jot down the bugs.

4) System debugging. (con't from 3)

5) Learned PHP and MySQL from internet tutorial.

6) Coding for system.

7) Research on send SMS via ASP

8) Website design. (Again~~)

This month not much complain, because I learned a lot from works. I was enjoyed although feel tired. Honestly, I preferred system coding or debugging rather than website design. It's really not my interest at all.

Now, I filled my day with PHP, ASP, Javascript, VB script as well as some MySQL query. Hope I still talking human languages. I have to admit that IT students used to be learned more languages than ordinary people. You know what I'm talking about~ :D

I voiced it out at last~

我独自站在灯柱下，凝视着自己的影子。
我想脱离那紧跟的黑暗，但却无能为力。
我还记得你曾对我说，下辈子要成为我的影子，紧紧跟牢我。

我有很多话想要对你说，但我就是害怕会伤了你的心。
看着你满怀欣喜地诉说他的好，我的心顿时感到刺痛。
为了不要让你担心，我尽我所能去掩饰我的伤感。
我所挤出的笑容，都快把我的脸给弄得紧绷了。

屏幕上有着我的笑脸，键盘上有我的热泪。
泪水模糊了我的视线，我的前景也模糊了。
所有计划宣告无限期展延。

我又食言了，我哭了！
对不起，真的对不起！
我答应过你，我是不哭的，
因为我已还你了。

但。。。
眼泪像洪水崩了堤，堵不住了。
我不压抑，不勉强，
闭上眼让自己尽情地哭。

那日在你的怀中，你对我说：

哭吧，尽情地哭吧，别压抑太久了！我知道你很辛苦！

是啊，你就是那么的了解我，我们就是那么心灵相通，
也就因如此，在你面前，
我会毫无保留，毫无顾忌。

若我们还有下辈子，
下辈子我一定要找到你，
与你携手共渡。

1-4-3 F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

一切尽在不言中。
很多事不必说出口，你已知道很清楚。
后悔是终身的遗憾，但至少我没遗憾。
不能天长地久，但很庆幸曾经拥有。
回忆是永不磨灭，但会被时间淡化。

善忘的你，希望你记得。。。

Make A Wish

My friend once said

If you saw aeroplane fly over your head at least nine-times a day,
Make a wish, and your wish may come true.

(except at airport)

也许太过天真，有点天马行空。
一年半以前，我已经有了这个习惯。
我对着它许愿，也许愿望很卑微，
但它也许也在你耳边回响多遍了。
身份，地位，价值，
是我的致命伤。

心情

天空没有痕迹，但鸟儿已经展翅掠过。
胸口没有疤痕，但匕首已经肆虐刺入。
曾是你闭上双眼，聆听的地方，
现在已。。。

重伤了，淌血了。

One Month

Shall I say it is too fast to pass my first month of internship?
No way~!! I urge it passes as fast as possible. Just pray harder for someone or something which can drag me out from the hell. I'm not deserve for all these kinds of bloody hell stuffs. Who deserved with these...What the **CK!!!

Everyday go work on time, lunch break on time, back home on time. I admit that I really didn't pay them my heart during works. It's just kinda hard for me to do so. I tried to convince myself to do my best, but I ended up with big big yawning... :O

Guess what, for a whole month I'm still playing around with the website stuffs. N-times changes taken, supervisor still not satisfied. Is the problem come from my side? At the early stage, I admit that; and now I just getting fed up and disappointed.

All my colleague also said my supervisor a.k.a. IT Department head lack of communication skills. He won't tell the changes at one shot. Yesterday showed him, and he said change this and that only, the rest is good; today showed him the modified, he said change this and that, the rest is good. :

By the way, the things that he asked me to change on today is the things that he asked me to change yesterday. So why don't you yourself think carefully, then tell me your last decision. Just make me double works.

At first putting hopes of learning something new during internship, now seems my dream blew off. Supervisor said "If you don't know this and that, then it will take you very long time to learn by your own, but I hope you can do it fast." He is not going to teach me, yet blame on me for the slow progress.

ARGH~~~ Bloody GOD DAMN~~
DEPRESSED~~~
STRESSED == DESSERTS

p/s: It takes me long time. Please give me some time.